Visualizing World Peace
I’m here again. I’m sorry for the long break. I’ve decided to keep posting here but shorter in case there’s one person who’s still tuning in. I don’t have the strength to write more. And I’m going to make more mistakes than I used to.
I’ve been trying to meditate. It helps me fall asleep. I know, I know. I’m not supposed to sleep when I’m meditating, but if you struggled with sleep the way I do, you’d do anything. Anything. One of my favorites is to focus on one of my friends who has told me they’re struggling with something. This new life is more about listening too since talking takes energy. It’s sort of a way to disengage for just a moment from my problems. I’m trying to embrace my tiny precious life.
It helps.
When I’m meditating, I imagine this person who has a problem, then I try to picture them sitting in the sun on a cool day, closing their eyes and feeling its warmth. I try to imagine dappled leaves. I try to imagine breathing in fresh air. I try to imagine a soft blanket or jacket. Sometimes, all I can conjure in my mind is a color.
The strange thing is that I don’t do this with words. Is it praying if there are no words? Is it really meditating since I haven’t learned an organized method? What is it? Am I justifying the hours and days I have to sit quietly? Probably.
I’m not sure. What it is doing is making me feel happier. I can do this kind of ‘work’ even when I’m exhausted. I can close my eyes in the dark when I’m trying in vain to fall asleep and visualize a precious piece of solace around a friend. Have you felt a wave of comfort in a moment of trouble? Maybe someone is meditating, sending you a tiny cloud of world peace.
Thank you for listening, jules
This is what happens when the government goes corrupt and ordinary people have to turn off Netflix and get to work resisting.
This is what happens when a woman turns off the news and tries to find and keep her humanity and joy.
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